When we as people are on the wrong path, our days seem eternal, never able to have to pleasure, but when we are on the path that we want to be on it feels like it flies by. Its a common fact that when we are happy that time flies. Now that this year is so close to a close I am realizing something. We all become a full circle, whether it is in school, or in work, or just in life we always find ways to complete ourselves.
Why do angels fall But to pick themselves up We want that good life Now we have found it By being angels that float above all We sail and we fly away and when it gets down to size That's all we wanted Was to fly away To be higher then all others Whether we fight Whether we have all the money in the world We all have those days We feel like falling Angels
Today was great! All the stress of this week has been lifted. Im so glad to see my mom and that shes ok. I cannot wait for this weekend... a well needed break from the insanities of life.
School is such a pain but i cannot wait for the next day...is there something wrong with me? I look forward to seeing the faces and feeling the love that people are able to share with one another. My problem is when drama shows its ugly face. I have been trying so hard to stay away from it but somehow it keeps coming back to bite me. My one release is when i pick up my guitar. I feel a power just rush through my body that takes away all the stress. The problem is in the morning when i have to deal with the people that like to make my life difficult But for now i'm just going to not let these people get to me and live with love and light!!!
Within the past few days I have realized how much i really dislike change. Maybe its because of the fact Im a taurus. I have been so busy trying to keep up with my social life I have kind of forgotten who I really am. I know that its the fall, this is a time for change, but whats happening right now is not a change I want. If people change are we supposed to just pretend like nothing is happening or do we have to change with them? Are we supposed to just stand idle by and just let our friends just pass us by, leaving us a shadow? I've had the darkness before, i've been down that road and I know where it leads. Im not ready to go into the darkness, not again.
I am hoping that this weekend doesn't bring a part of me to an end. I am hoping that i can find some peace of mind to change who i have been in the past in order to change for the better. This past week has been spent with a lot of things on my shoulders and its time to get rid of it all.
''Hey Peggy, it's me. You are never going to believe what happened to me today. I'm sittin' at the unemployment office, waitin' on my loser of a caseworker, in one of those nasty chairs, when from out of nowhere, this total stranger walks right up to me, sits down, then leans over and says something like, This is gonna sound a little obsessive.''
This is gonna sound a little obsessive This is gonna sound a little bit strange I have one thing to say Before I turn and I walk away
This is gonna sound a little impulsive This is gonna sound a little insane I know you don't know me yet But you and I, we will be together someday Someday I know, I know, I sound like I'm on drugs Listen to me when I say
That ever since when I first saw you Sittin' on your car outside You asked for a cigarette I couldn't stop starin' at your eyes
Ever since when I first saw you Looking bored in that plastic chair With the lights of the office around you Those blond streaks, they look so pretty in your black hair You look cool and alternative with that disaffected stare Yeah you want people to think that you just don't care
Hey you can be with me Yeah 'cause I just might be the one Who will treat you like you're perfect Who will always make you come Hey you can be with me Yes I will always let you win I will never be like those other guys I will never be your unemployed boyfriend
Can you believe he said that to me? To me, of all people! I can't even remember the last time a guy took me out on a date and actually paid for it!?
This is gonna sound a little bit out there This is gonna sound a little insane I keep having the same dream You will be the mother of my children someday Someday
I heard you sleep with that obnoxious guy I know he is in that famous band You look so sad when you are with him Yes I never see him reach to hold your hand
Yeah you can be with me Yes I will treat you like a queen I will go to all those chick flick movies That I really don't want to see Yeah you can be with me No I will never let you down I will never make out with your girlfriend When I know you're not around Yes you can be with me Yeah I just might be the one Who will treat you like you're special I will always make you come You can be with me Yes I will always let you win I will never be like those other guys I will never be like those other guys I will never be your unemployed boyfriend
Can you believe this? I mean, can this be for real?"
No!
"Then he takes my hand, writes down his number, and just walks away."
Sit alone Play alone Blast out the world Be yourself Don't give in Show the world Your the best thats ever been Be Alone Try your best Achieve your dreams Don't let anyone tear them down.
There are times that we all need to be alone, I find that there are times that i just want to be without anyone around me. Other times i feel as though i want to be surrounded by people.
To be alone you are able to have your own thoughts, your own mind. At time it can be as simple as just relaxing and just thinking. Other times its better not to think at all.
Eyes are what make people who they are. They are a persons personality. Their life. People sometimes can just look into a persons eyes and know everything about them. I look into ryans eyes and i see the world. I love him so much for that.
Cant you see that its just raining Aint no need to go outside... But Baby, You hardly even notice When I try to show you this Song is meant to keep ya From doing what your supposed to Waking up too early Maybe we can sleep in Ill make you banana pancakes Pretend like its the weekend now
And we can pretend it all the time Cant you see that its just raining Aint no need to go outside
Just maybe, like and ukelele Mommy made a baby Really dont mind the breakfast Cause your my little lady Lady lady love me Cause I love to lay here lazy We could close the curtains Pretend like there's no work outside
And we can pretend it all the time Cant you see that its just raining Aint no need to go outside Aint no need aint no need Mmmm MMmmm Cant you see cant you see Rain all day And I dont mind.
The telephone is singing Ringing its too early Don't pick it up We don't need to we got everything We need right here And everything we need is enough Just so easy When the whole world fits inside of your arms Don't really need to pay attention to the alarm Wake up slow, yeah wake up slow You hardly even notice When I try to show you this Song is meant to keep ya From doing what your supposed to Waking up too early Maybe we can sleep in Ill make you banana pancakes Pretend like its the weekend now
And we can pretend it all the time Cant you see that its just raining Aint no need to go outside Cant you see cant you see, You gotta wake up slow
Copyright Alyssa Garcia Body, mind and soul All falling into this life The beautiful branches Ever changing Love in each leaf The changing of the seasons Brings life Then death Looking into the beauty Brings power to our lives We fall into the eternity Of ever changing
Can not wait to see another victory guys! Last week they went out onto the field with 24 players dressed and slaughtered the other team with a wide reciever as a quarterback!!
Todays just a music kind of day!! Fridays are perfect for music. Im just starting to learn the guitar for this song!
I am still living with your ghost Lonely and dreaming of the west coast I dont want to be your downtime I dont want to be your stupid game
With my big black boots and an old suitcase I do believe Ill find myself a new place I dont want to be the bad guy I dont want to do your sleepwalk dance anymore I just want to see some palm trees Go and try and shake away this disease
We can live beside the ocean Leave the fire behind Swim out past the breakers Watch the world die
I am still dreaming of your face Hungry and hollow for all the things you took away
I dont want to be your good time I dont want to be your fall-back crutch anymore
Ill walk right out into a brand new day Insane and rising in my own weird way I dont want to be the bad guy
I dont want to do your sleepwalk dance anymore I just want to feel some sunshine I just want to find some place to be alone
We can live beside the ocean Leave the fire behind Swim out past the breakers Watch the world die
There are some people that make loving them difficult. Not Ryan. Ryan makes it easy to love him, whether its cute little remarks or making cute things like he did in the the picture above. He is so sweet. I feel like everyone should have a love like this. There is no greater feeling in the world and everyday it gets better and better.
When i was a kid i always wanted to have a love like my parents and i now think that i have found that love with ryan. This is something different then just normal highschool love.
Within the 5 days that i have been at school, I have become in a daze. I cannot stop thinking about the things we have been talking about in school. EVERYTHING relates back to something i want to do int the future... besides gym.
I have been paying such close attention to my teachers. Whether its english or geometry or even science this year. I cannot wait for what i am able to learn this year. The amount of everything that is avaliable to me this year is amazing and i cannot wait to use it!
I miss the good old days... I miss the days when your friends had only one thing in mind, when are we going to play? I miss the days when friends weren't decided by possessions and by what music they like. I miss when drama was only something you watched on TV.
In ONE week my drama queens have managed to put my over the edge. They are consistent. They can put anyone into a position they don't want to be in. Myself, I wish that I didn't have to do what I have to do but for me it isn't worth it to have a bubble in my stomach over people I do not plan on talking to in a year or so. These people are current friends but at this rate they will be lucky to get a hello in the hallway anymore.
I kind of feel like a jerk for this post but every time that I try to give the drama queens another chance it doesn't work. My family is the only people I want close to me right now. They are the people that I can trust above all. So I'm walking away from my friends and embracing the love of my family.
These last few days have been amazing for me. I have made a lot of realizations and i cannot wait for these next few weeks. i have been in different classes that have shown me that i need to just live for the moment. I have been thinking too much about the future and i wish that I hadnt done that. I know that i need t plan for college. I know i need to get a job and start working but i also need to be able to relax at times. Stress leads to too many problems, with friends and family.
Im just going to live it up with my family, most are only around for a small amount of time and there isnt a chance that i would rather be anywhere then with them!
With time, some fears are able to fade away while others are never going to go away. There are some fears that we are never able to face though. Its difficult to face certain fears, like public speaking. One of my BIGGEST fears in my life. I understand that there are people that can face their fears but that is not one of them for me.
Fears that i believe people can face are the fears of certain objects or animals. I am deathly afraid of clowns but i think that eventually i COULD potentially get over it. People say that its a phobia. its called coulrophobia, which is the fear of clowns. thats something that you can get over, over time.
Public speaking im guessing comes with time, but i have no want to get over that fear because i am so afraid, i dislike saying anything infront of anyone other then my friends.
So is there something wrong with me that i am like this? Am i too afraid of change? whatever it may be i hope to figure it out soon, because school requires you to be more open with yourself and with your peers no matter how afraid you are.
We all have things that we are naturally good at, there are things that with being taught that we can learn pretty easily too. Currently im in school and there are things i know already that im going to need to pay alot of attention to and learn, this is my last year and i need to do well and im going to.
Alot of people put blocks on themselves, they say that they cant do certain things, like learn, that they cant do better then a d or c in certain classes and i dont believe it, i see that with my friends especially, they are constantly tearing themselves down about how they do academicly. and it bothers me cause i love them and i dont want them to be like that, so i offer my help, i tell them, hey i will help you all the time if you want, just let me know and ill be there or call me, and no matter how many times i say it, they never do.
This is about learning from your own mistakes, if you cant get it down on your own the first time, dont be fighting to pass something when you have help right infront of you. Accept the help and learn that its ok not to do everything by yourself.
No matter how we try to preserve it time passes us by constantly we see it with EVERYONE. It passes us by and there are even times that we dont understand it, but now i can see that i need to live it up
In the last 2 days i have truly realized that time has just flown right past me. Within the last three years i have had my share of relationships, and shits, i have had my share of AMAZING teachers, some that i even tried to get more then once. I have passed up dances, gone to football games and lost alot of friends over the most pathetic of reasons. AND now they tell me that its over 200 days and ill be graduating, even less if you only count school days, ill be 18, and ill be on my way to college. Ill hopefully still be by Ryans side. and i cannot wait for he rest of this school year, im so excited about finally graduating.
I know its a little off topic but who doesnt love Pink Floyd Dark side of the Moon!
Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day You fritter and waste the hours in an off hand way Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town Waiting for someone or something to show you the way
Tired of lying in the sunshine staying home to watch the rain You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today And then one day you find ten years have got behind you No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun
And you run and you run to catch up with the sun, but its sinking And racing around to come up behind you again The sun is the same in the relative way, but youre older Shorter of breath and one day closer to death
Every year is getting shorter, never seem to find the time Plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines Hanging on in quiet desperation is the english way The time is gone, the song is over, thought Id something more to say
Home, home again I like to be here when I can And when I come home cold and tired Its good to warm my bones beside the fire Far away across the field The tolling of the iron bell Calls the faithful to their knees To hear the softly spoken magic spells.
We all have our own view on things. People at times have problems admitting when they are wrong, in my circle. We all think we know it all. Now there is a problem with some of my friends that they are repeating my mistakes, almost action for action, i understand some cant get things till they do it themselves but come on, there are certain things that you have to get in life and i think that taking advice should be one of them. i know my last post said that drama queens are on there own, this is just my opinion for everyone, not just the drama queens, EVERYONE needs some form of critisizm or help at some point.
People tell me that i dont make any sense at times, i get that, i do but i think the fact that they are blinded by SOMETHING that isnt allowing them to hear what im telling them.
This is now the point im going to walk away, Friend, or not im walking away.
My first day back to school, im looking forward to seeing some of my friends, and others are who this post is for. I understand that we are teenagers, I understand that drama is part of high school, im not oblivious to that fact at all. My problem is when it comes anywhere near me.
This is my senior year and im not looking to be in all the drama, I have delt with it the last 3 years, its not going to happen at all this year, im unable to give a damn about these people, if they have drama i dont want it anywhere near me. I hate dealing with problems people start themselves, whether its boyfriend stealing and then getting hated or being over obsessed with a guy who used and dumped you, I DONT CARE!
Again i have delt with this for 3 years and it will never happen again, and all im going to do from now on is, im sorry, not my problem and if im an ass for wanting to mind my own buisness im sorry have a nice life hope you get far with all your drama!
Truly, am i a jerk for wanting to live outside of that drama?
This may seem like the wrong thing to do, but in some situations theres nothing that you can do is walk away. I think that in romantic relationships is the only time that you shouldnt do it. With family you can though, they will be able to understand that you just dont want to start a fight with them, there are times thats the only thing that you can do for them. I think its the only thing that can keep certain relationships together especially with family.
Now, in a romantic relationship its only kind of a good thing to walk away. If there is a problem in that situation 9 times out of 10 it is better to talk about it then walk away. With that type of a situation they can think that you are walking away from the relationship by not talking BUT if tensions are high and you really dont want to risk what you have with the person, and you think things could be said that both of you would regret in the morning, is the only time you walk away, but you have to make it clear that that is why you are walking away.
Now with friends. This is a different story, they are normally only in your life for a certain period of time especially with where i am right now, in highschool, friend ships dont make it that far in highschool. its better just to walk away and let the other person cool down and let yourself cool down. With most friend situations it normally has something to do with the drama that goes on at school, so then your not only walking away from the person, you walk away from the problems that they normally caused themselves.
I know its stupid to walk away but there are always situations that it works better then talking and getting pissed at eachother.
I've been stuck in this whirlwind My life's been spinning round my head Long distance conversations Make up for me not being there
And now I'm coming home I'm coming home to you again I hope you feel the same Now I'm coming home I'm coming home to you again I hope things haven't changed
Singin' I've been locked inside this freight train Unaware of the normal life I had Frustration building a foundation I wrote this song to let you know that I'll be back
Screamin' I hope you feel the same
I can't stop, can't stop thinking About what you do when you're alone Let's cut right to the chase girl Take back the time, time that we've lost, time we've lost
Something few find but even fewer hold onto. I have found who i love. People can tell me im to young to know what love really is, but i think i have it figured out. its the person you cant stop thinking about, and that they cant stop thinking about you too. its the person that no matter what time it is they always find a way to answer a call or text. The person that always tries to make things easier on you. it has nothing to do with the things the person get and does for you. it has to do with how you feel about the person when that are and arent around. it the person that after you are done hanging out with them all day, you still want to be around them and that you really dont want to say goodbye. Hes the person i think about the second i wake up and right before i go to bed. And its also the same way for the other person, thats what makes it real love.
It has been 5 months to the day i have felt like this. im in love with Ryan and even though i cannot see him today he will be one of the only people on my mind, and the only man that will ever really mean anything to me, outside of my family.
We all say that we want to be more open with people that, that is our goal with them. We see it all the time in realtionships with family, friends or a signifigant other, we always try to stay open with ur minds as much a we can. There are times that they ont know things about us, even the simplist of things, for example i like to write short stories, and poetry but if you asked anyone in my family on a few would know that i do, my mom and my grandma most likly. my boyfriend knows i get bored and i write but he hasnt even read one of my stories. And thats just a basic example of things that we hide from people.
We all need to be more open with eachother, theres no reason to not tell someone something or just forget to mention that you have a big secret in your life.
The people around you deserve to know the things that are on your mind, if they are important enough to keep in your life, why not have the courage to tell them more abou yourself then just the day to day things.
Sometimes we tell people that they know us better then we do at some times but can it really be true? Each person is unique in their own special ways and that cant be changed. We are sometimes able to see things about people before they do, not because we are mind readers or because we know everything, it is because as humans we are able to make intuitive leaps about how a person is going to go about there life depending upon previous actions now sometime people say that they have changed but they are still exactly the same. Others though can make changes throughout highschool and through out the course of a few years.
People cannot figure us out entirly, we all have our own minds and we all are able to be ourselves without being judged by anyone but ourself.
We cannot let others say that they know us better because that would be impossible.
They are called the wee folk, the fair folk and the people of the peace. They are types of angels. They have the ability to fly, to cast spells and they can forsee the future. In modern cuture they are always short and young women, but some are tall radiant angelic beings. Fairies are normally have insect or butterfly wings.
There are times i wish that i was a fairy, i wish that i was able to fly i want to be able to fly away at times and just escape the world. To be a fairy would be perfect i could be in love, i could fly and then i could help ohers find there love and figure out what could help take them away from the problems in there life.
Flying would be freeing, it would be like having the most euphoric feeling in the world. it would be the feeling of perfect, you could fly where ever you want and do whatever you want to do. The flight is the most perfect flying among the clouds and be free. Nothing could stop us.
Instead of fighting with people all we would have to fight would be nature. and theres nothing that can stop nature but people can be stoped, its all a matter of how you stop them. whether it be looking at them for what they are or helping them realize all they want to do is fly too.
We all want to fly, we all want to be free, maybe if we could all fly maybe we would be more peaceful.
Some people have this crazy idea, that they have to be living a certain way or that they have to look a certain way in order to fit in, it isnt true. Some people are able to find there way into a crowd thats just like them and they can maintain their own security. People find ways to make others look smaller in order to better themselves. Some people pride themselves on how they are able to bring down another human being. Look at different stereotypes in schools, some of them end up commiting suicide, some get themselves expelled nd some sit in detention week after week because they are trying to prove they are better then the "system"
We sould all be tryin to help eachother in different situations, trying to better ouselves by helping better others.
Although i kind of feel like im preaching to the choir there are times that we are blind and dont see what we are putting other people through.
All of my pictures that i have taken to Pink Floyds On the Turning Away
On the turning away From the pale and downtrodden And the words they say Which we wont understand Dont accept that whats happening Is just a case of others suffering Or youll find that youre joining in The turning away
Its a sin that somehow Light is changing to shadow And casting its shroud Over all we have known Unaware how the ranks have grown Driven on by a heart of stone We could find that were all alone In the dream of the proud
On the wings of the night As the daytime is stirring Where the speechless unite In a silent accord Using words you will find are strange And mesmerized as they light the flame Feel the new wind of change On the wings of the night
No more turning away From the weak and the weary No more turning away From the coldness inside Just a world that we all must share Its not enough just to stand and stare Is it only a dream that therell be No more turning away?
Some pictures are personal and others are from KCEagles.com
Good luck the rest of this season eagles
I was caught In the middle of a railroad track (Thunder) I looked round And I knew there was no turning back (Thunder) My mind raced And I thought what could I do (Thunder) And I knew There was no help, no help from you (Thunder)
Sound of the drums Beatin' in my heart The thunder of guns Tore me apart You've been - thunderstruck
Went down the highway Broke the limit, we hit the town Went through to Texas, yeah Texas And we had some fun We met some girls Some dancers who gave a good time Broke all the rules, played all the fools Yeah, yeah, they, they, they blew our minds
I was shakin' at the knees Could I come again please? Yeah the ladies were too kind You've been - thunderstruck, thunderstruck Yeah yeah yeah, thunderstruck
Oh, thunderstruck Yeah
Now we're shaking at the knees Could I come again please?
Insanity in its truest form is stupidity. People see it every day. People are creatures of habit, they all follow the same patterns. People date the same types of people, EVERYTIME and they always make the same mistake and fall for the person. A friend of mine has been with the same girl over 8 times and now he is planning on asking her out again, to me that is true stupidity. i wish that i could show him how stupid that he is. then again he is a guy...so maybe i am expecting too much..
People need to find the balance in there lives from going insane and being overly sane.
This song hit #1 the week ryan and i went to Brighton Michigan!
It was 1989, my thoughts were short my hair was long Caught somewhere between a boy and man She was seventeen and she was far from in-between It was summertime in Northern Michigan Ahh Ahh AhhAhh Ahh Ahh
Splashing through the sand bar Talking by the campfire It's the simple things in life, like when and where We didn't have no internet But man I never will forget The way the moonlight shined upon her hair
[Chorus:]And we were trying different things We were smoking funny things Making love out by the lake to our favorite song Sipping whiskey out the bottle, not thinking 'bout tomorrow Singing Sweet home Alabama all summer long Singing Sweet home Alabama all summer long
Catching Walleye from the dock Watching the waves roll off the rocks She'll forever hold a spot inside my soul We'd blister in the sun We couldn't wait for night to come To hit that sand and play some rock and roll
While we were trying different things And we were smoking funny things Making love out by the lake to our favorite song Sipping whiskey out the bottle, not thinking 'bout tomorrow Singing Sweet Home Alabama all summer long Singing Sweet Home Alabama all summer long
Now nothing seems as strange as when the leaves began to change Or how we thought those days would never end Sometimes I'll hear that song and I'll start to sing along And think man I'd love to see that girl again
[Repeat Chorus x2]
Singing Sweet Home Alabama all summer long Singing Sweet Home Alabama all summer long Singing Sweet Home Alabama all summer long Singing Sweet Home Alabama all summer long
Why do we always question our loves, even though we know that the other wouldnt ever cheat we still accuse them. Whether it has happened in our past or whether its something we believe to be true. People, myself included, do this constantly, and it pushes the other person away for no good reason
I found Ryan, the first guy i have ever brought home to meet anyone other then my mom, he has met my Mom,Dad,Grandparents and my two cousins and they all love him. Then i have met his mom and sorta stepdad, his brother and sister and his step brother and his aunt and her two kids. We have both shown ourselves in our others family life.
I try to share everything with him but its difficult because of the fact that i have told people everything before and then they left, like my best friend kyle who i ended up dating and having dump me. I want to be able to tell ryan everything but kyle especially killed all my trust in my friends, there are a few i had that graduated and left and then there are some that moved away this summer, and some that just grew apart from me.
Whatever way you spin it, it is going to take time for me to grow to trust Ryan and anyone new that comes into my life
Love is UNCONDITIONAL as i said before but my problem is wondering if a true love is possible there are people that make it pretty damn close, but there are arguments that happen and i am unsure of whether a YOUNG love is truly possible. I see my parents and the love that they share after 17 years and how they are still in love and happy after that long of a time and after falling in love and having a kid at 18.
Music stays with all of us. Whether it be a song or a soundtrack to a movie there is some form of music that we all are able to fall in love with. Music is in the deepest parts of our souls we are able to listen to it and make real connections to our lives. People write it and sing it so that they can try to connect with us.
Music is a lot of peoples escape from the world they use their lyrics as a form of poetry and expression to show how they truly feel about the world and they express it without directly questioning the world itself but sparks our interest and how we look at the world
Change isnt always a good thing there are times that change is for the worse when people dont try anymore, when they attempt to change to be like someone else. That is somthing people shouldnt ever try to do. Individuality is a gift that alot of people dont take advantage of, they always want to be like there friends or like there parents and thats not how the world should be. People base how they think and act off of how the tv says everything should be and that isnt how ANYTHING should be. People need t learn to formulate opinions on there own not based on what everyone else says that they should believe.
When you see the old people that are against having a change in there life because they have lived the same way they have for so many years that they cant change. Its how they were raised and they dont want to be any other way, and if they want something to happen you cannot change there minds. And in that sence CHANGE is impossible.
In relationships you are supposed to be able to change all the time and no matter what happens you are supposed to be able to change for your partner so that your relationship doesnt falter. and you see in alot of marriges today that one or the other is not willing to make a change and that that is why those marriges fail. And that isnt going to change unless the people of today are willing to change.
Its UNCONDITIONAL. No one can change it. You never give up on anything if your in love. it always stays with you. It doesnt break. it doesnt fall apart. The person that you are in love with will always listen to and you listen in return. Its something that is ever changing and always growing. You will never hear of a love that stays the same because people are incapable of staying the exact same thier entire life, people grow, and they change and a true love grows with that change and not against it.
You see people all the time that say that one person has changed in a relationship but that is impossible they both changed they both realized that they have different needs and different priorities but in my mind that means that they werent in love at all, they just tried to make something work and it didnt.
My entire life i have always seen how young love can actually work against how other people persieve it. My parents fell in love in highschool and 17 years later they are still together and they are still in love. They had me when they were 18 and now 17 years later they arent like most other familys that have just divorced when things got tough which gives me hope for my future.
Love isnt meant to be f**ked with, if its a real love NO ONE can get inbetween it.
People DISGUST me. You have the people that think they own the world, You have the people that wish they owned the world and the people that wish that they werent in this world because of the battle between the other two types of people. i am in the third group, as is my love. We both see the world for what it really is, a bunch of people that STRUGGLE to try and find he acceptance that they are longing for and it cannot ever happen because each group stays alone, they dont EVER let anyone within there group because the arent like that from birth and thats what screws over the entire world. We STRUGGLE to fit in but we never find that acceptance from whatever group we are wishing to be in, and this KILLS a part of all of us and its a crippler not to find what we want or what we need. The people in the third group LONG for something else, they long for COMPASION and a LOVE that wont fade away or leave and the few that find it are the only HAPPY people in the world.
I have realized, all of my friends are extreme drama queens. My own supposed best friend flirst with my boyfriend, and she can say its just her personality but i didnt know peoples personalities forced them to flirt with someone elses man. i understand being a flirt but theres only so much a person can believe. Then there are people that make up bs stories that their boyfriend got stabbed and that she is in a gang and that shes a drug dealer and that her father beats her, but i have been to that house and her dad wouldnt hurt a fly he may bitch but he'd never hurt her, and about her "boyfriend" the name she said he had was the same as her bestfriends actual boyfriend at the time, all the "texts" she recieved were all in her draft box that she made and saved herself, then, as if that wasnt bad enough she made up a pwerson that would come over to her house and left me a voice mail and she pretended to be this guy, AND i still have it so she cant call me a liar. Another friend i have is a bipolar dork, he goes from being completly cool to an asshole within less then 5 minutes, he calls me his best girlfriend, and there are things he knows about me that no one outside my mom and dad knows. and i wish that i could tell him everything because thats how much i trust him, but even though that is true im not sure how fast some of my stuff will be spread if i trust everyone that i think i trust. Then there is my boyfriend, hes probably the sweetest guy, besides my dad, that i have ever met. i trust him not to drop me, i trust that he isnt going to leave me and that he will always be there for me. i dont know why the guy i have only known for a month has more trust then any of my girlfriends, and i think i may understand it. hes the first guy to just hold me sometimes, kiss my forehead and my cheeks and my hands, he holds my hand and doesnt say that its rushing things, I look forward to being around him because he makes me feel like a princess. He calls me his sunshine. and he calls me and talks to me till next to the second i go to bed and it makes me feel safe. I hope EVERONE has someone that makes you feel that special, because there is no greater feeling then being able o get on the phone with someone and feel like no matter how shitty the day you had was they are always there to pull you back from that day and make you feel perfect.
Through out my life I have met many people. People that have brought me somewhere in life. People that have helped me find parts of myself. People that have brought me a friendship i couldnt find anywhere else. But no matter what, i believe that all these people have a reason in your life and you arent meant to cut them out of your life over a fight or a dispute. The guy i am currently in a relationship with, i would have never met if it wasnt for a friend we had in common. And he pointed that out to me a few days ago, and if it wasnt for the friend in common we had we probably never would have became friends and probably never ended up dating. My mom always tells me no to live in the drama, and i understand that certain people cant live without it, especially in my circle of friends. And they all believe that everything in life should be handed to them. BUT isnt that how we all are at times? Just because people spread drama or live in drama is no reason to cut them out of your life. they are people too and maybe the reason they spread this fake stuff is to try to get over what is truly bothering them You never know what each individual is going through, you may see people with the most expencive of possesions but it doesnt matter, Things dont matter.
