Much better...

Today was great! All the stress of this week has been lifted. Im so glad to see my mom and that shes ok. I cannot wait for this weekend... a well needed break from the insanities of life.

So.......

School is such a pain but i cannot wait for the next day...is there something wrong with me? I look forward to seeing the faces and feeling the love that people are able to share with one another. My problem is when drama shows its ugly face. I have been trying so hard to stay away from it but somehow it keeps coming back to bite me.
My one release is when i pick up my guitar. I feel a power just rush through my body that takes away all the stress. The problem is in the morning when i have to deal with the people that like to make my life difficult
But for now i'm just going to not let these people get to me and live with love and light!!!

Change...

Within the past few days I have realized how much i really dislike change. Maybe its because of the fact Im a taurus. I have been so busy trying to keep up with my social life I have kind of forgotten who I really am. I know that its the fall, this is a time for change, but whats happening right now is not a change I want.
If people change are we supposed to just pretend like nothing is happening or do we have to change with them? Are we supposed to just stand idle by and just let our friends just pass us by, leaving us a shadow?
I've had the darkness before, i've been down that road and I know where it leads. Im not ready to go into the darkness, not again.

To my Love......

I need your help.....

Theres this boy....

That i love....

Hes not beautiful....

Hes gorgeous

He isn't sweet...

Hes the sweetest

He isn't my friend...

Hes my best friend

He isn't the one i want until i die...

Hes the one i want for the rest of my life and all the time after

I love you!!!!!


Today is our 6 month, i can not believe that is only half a year! I love him so much!!

Peace

I am hoping that this weekend doesn't bring a part of me to an end. I am hoping that i can find some peace of mind to change who i have been in the past in order to change for the better. This past week has been spent with a lot of things on my shoulders and its time to get rid of it all.

Shining Through

Copyright Alyssa Garcia

Unemployed Boyfriend By Everclear

''Hey Peggy, it's me.
You are never going to believe what happened to me today.
I'm sittin' at the unemployment office, waitin' on my loser of a caseworker,
in one of those nasty chairs,
when from out of nowhere, this total stranger walks right up to me,
sits down, then leans over and says something like,
This is gonna sound a little obsessive.''

This is gonna sound a little obsessive
This is gonna sound a little bit strange
I have one thing to say
Before I turn and I walk away

This is gonna sound a little impulsive
This is gonna sound a little insane
I know you don't know me yet
But you and I, we will be together someday
Someday
I know, I know, I sound like I'm on drugs
Listen to me when I say

That ever since when I first saw you
Sittin' on your car outside
You asked for a cigarette
I couldn't stop starin' at your eyes

Ever since when I first saw you
Looking bored in that plastic chair
With the lights of the office around you
Those blond streaks, they look so pretty in your black hair
You look cool and alternative with that disaffected stare
Yeah you want people to think that you just don't care

Hey you can be with me
Yeah 'cause I just might be the one
Who will treat you like you're perfect
Who will always make you come
Hey you can be with me
Yes I will always let you win
I will never be like those other guys
I will never be your unemployed boyfriend

Can you believe he said that to me?
To me, of all people! I can't even remember the last time a guy took me out
on a date and actually paid for it!?

This is gonna sound a little bit out there
This is gonna sound a little insane
I keep having the same dream
You will be the mother of my children someday
Someday

I heard you sleep with that obnoxious guy
I know he is in that famous band
You look so sad when you are with him
Yes I never see him reach to hold your hand

Yeah you can be with me
Yes I will treat you like a queen
I will go to all those chick flick movies
That I really don't want to see
Yeah you can be with me
No I will never let you down
I will never make out with your girlfriend
When I know you're not around
Yes you can be with me
Yeah I just might be the one
Who will treat you like you're special
I will always make you come
You can be with me
Yes I will always let you win
I will never be like those other guys
I will never be like those other guys
I will never be your unemployed boyfriend

Can you believe this? I mean, can this be for real?"

No!

"Then he takes my hand, writes down his number, and just walks away."

Whoa!

Dance like no ones watching!!!

Stop caring what people think

BE YOURSELF

Don't pay any attention to who's watching you. Because no matter what those people will still be there.

You cant please everyone

The only person you need to please is yourself!

Something to think about...

It pretty much speaks for itself!!!!

Happy...

We all need to find time in everyday. A time to forget the world. A time to get away and just be yourself. Reflect on the day and just SMILE

Just be.....

Sit alone
Play alone
Blast out the world
Be yourself
Don't give in
Show the world
Your the best thats ever been
Be Alone
Try your best
Achieve your dreams
Don't let anyone tear them down.

Sunday peace

Copyright Ryan Tones

To be alone....

There are times that we all need to be alone, I find that there are times that i just want to be without anyone around me. Other times i feel as though i want to be surrounded by people.

To be alone you are able to have your own thoughts, your own mind. At time it can be as simple as just relaxing and just thinking. Other times its better not to think at all.

We all need that time alone.

To think, grow and develop personally.

Is it in the eyes?

Eyes are what make people who they are. They are a persons personality. Their life. People sometimes can just look into a persons eyes and know everything about them. I look into ryans eyes and i see the world. I love him so much for that.

People are around to see into and love you.

I LOVE HIM!

9/11/08

In memory of September 11th, 2001.

Lost but never forgotten are the people that were taken because of this catastrophy.

Peace, Love and Blessings
Alyssa

Girls....

LOL

Needed an easy going day!!!!

Its so true!!!!

Banana Pancakes

Cant you see that its just raining
Aint no need to go outside...
But Baby, You hardly even notice
When I try to show you this
Song is meant to keep ya
From doing what your supposed to
Waking up too early
Maybe we can sleep in
Ill make you banana pancakes
Pretend like its the weekend now

And we can pretend it all the time
Cant you see that its just raining
Aint no need to go outside

Just maybe, like and ukelele
Mommy made a baby
Really dont mind the breakfast
Cause your my little lady
Lady lady love me
Cause I love to lay here lazy
We could close the curtains
Pretend like there's no work outside

And we can pretend it all the time
Cant you see that its just raining
Aint no need to go outside
Aint no need aint no need Mmmm MMmmm
Cant you see cant you see
Rain all day
And I dont mind.

The telephone is singing
Ringing its too early
Don't pick it up
We don't need to we got everything
We need right here
And everything we need is enough
Just so easy
When the whole world fits inside of your arms
Don't really need to pay attention to the alarm
Wake up slow, yeah wake up slow
You hardly even notice
When I try to show you this
Song is meant to keep ya
From doing what your supposed to
Waking up too early
Maybe we can sleep in
Ill make you banana pancakes
Pretend like its the weekend now

And we can pretend it all the time
Cant you see that its just raining
Aint no need to go outside
Cant you see cant you see,
You gotta wake up slow

Falling into Eternity

Copyright Alyssa Garcia
Body, mind and soul
All falling into this life
The beautiful branches
Ever changing
Love in each leaf
The changing of the seasons
Brings life
Then death
Looking into the beauty
Brings power to our lives
We fall into the eternity
Of ever changing

Sunday Serenity

Copyright Ryan Tones

Kane County Eagles

Away game today!!!!!!!

Can not wait to see another victory guys! Last week they went out onto the field with 24 players dressed and slaughtered the other team with a wide reciever as a quarterback!!

You guys really are the champions for a reason!!!

Good Luck Eagles!!!!

Santa Monica

Todays just a music kind of day!! Fridays are perfect for music. Im just starting to learn the guitar for this song!



I am still living with your ghost
Lonely and dreaming of the west coast
I dont want to be your downtime
I dont want to be your stupid game

With my big black boots and an old suitcase
I do believe Ill find myself a new place
I dont want to be the bad guy
I dont want to do your sleepwalk dance anymore
I just want to see some palm trees
Go and try and shake away this disease

We can live beside the ocean
Leave the fire behind
Swim out past the breakers
Watch the world die

I am still dreaming of your face
Hungry and hollow for all the things you took away

I dont want to be your good time
I dont want to be your fall-back crutch anymore

Ill walk right out into a brand new day
Insane and rising in my own weird way
I dont want to be the bad guy

I dont want to do your sleepwalk dance anymore
I just want to feel some sunshine
I just want to find some place to be alone

We can live beside the ocean
Leave the fire behind
Swim out past the breakers
Watch the world die

Lovin Him...

There are some people that make loving them difficult. Not Ryan. Ryan makes it easy to love him, whether its cute little remarks or making cute things like he did in the the picture above. He is so sweet. I feel like everyone should have a love like this. There is no greater feeling in the world and everyday it gets better and better.

When i was a kid i always wanted to have a love like my parents and i now think that i have found that love with ryan. This is something different then just normal highschool love.

A Daze within Days

Within the 5 days that i have been at school, I have become in a daze. I cannot stop thinking about the things we have been talking about in school. EVERYTHING relates back to something i want to do int the future... besides gym.

I have been paying such close attention to my teachers. Whether its english or geometry or even science this year. I cannot wait for what i am able to learn this year. The amount of everything that is avaliable to me this year is amazing and i cannot wait to use it!

Friends

I miss the good old days... I miss the days when your friends had only one thing in mind, when are we going to play? I miss the days when friends weren't decided by possessions and by what music they like. I miss when drama was only something you watched on TV.

In ONE week my drama queens have managed to put my over the edge. They are consistent. They can put anyone into a position they don't want to be in. Myself, I wish that I didn't have to do what I have to do but for me it isn't worth it to have a bubble in my stomach over people I do not plan on talking to in a year or so. These people are current friends but at this rate they will be lucky to get a hello in the hallway anymore.

I kind of feel like a jerk for this post but every time that I try to give the drama queens another chance it doesn't work. My family is the only people I want close to me right now. They are the people that I can trust above all. So I'm walking away from my friends and embracing the love of my family.

Lovin life.

These last few days have been amazing for me. I have made a lot of realizations and i cannot wait for these next few weeks. i have been in different classes that have shown me that i need to just live for the moment. I have been thinking too much about the future and i wish that I hadnt done that. I know that i need t plan for college. I know i need to get a job and start working but i also need to be able to relax at times. Stress leads to too many problems, with friends and family.

Im just going to live it up with my family, most are only around for a small amount of time and there isnt a chance that i would rather be anywhere then with them!