Starting off fresh..

The last year that I went through was pretty much insane. I have been trying to reflect on everything that happened, but I really hate looking back because of how far I have come since it all started. I have made it back into college with the best grades that I have had in all of my years of school, and add in the fact that I am working full time 40 hours a week at a service desk... This is everything that I ever wanted... 19, steady job, living at home, going to school and working out so desk life doesn't end up killing me! Everything seems to be going great for the moment. I am trying to find different things to do (Like getting back to blogging :) ) I am ready to move forward and I hope to bring others with me as I am going on my crazy train. :)

Love
Lyssa

To everyone that has been here for me through my very bad year that I had, I am sorry for everything that I did, but know now that I am on the right path :)

How?

I went into the Animal House Shelter and was helping out with my friend. When we started working, I saw and was working with kittens, they were adorable. When we got into the back rooms i saw a beautiful black cat, Then I read the card from above.

I was afraid, how can someone hurt an animal like this, he is nothing but a sweet, innocent black cat. Now, besides the fact he is still sweet, he jumps whenever he hears someone, he gets scared easily but all i wanted when i saw him was to pet him and hold him.

I picked him up and held him, he rubbed his face against mine like he was giving me kisses, i saw his paws, covered in scars and burns but when I held him, all he did was purr at me.

All animals deserve a chance at a good life. This beautiful cat deserves a better life.

The Death of a Pop Legend 1958-2009

Honestly who could hate his music? He was on the pop scene for so many years as one of the top people, he was who started an era of music and created a venue that hadnt been explored before. He brought amazing dance moves, some awesome songs that stay stuck in your head for weeks, and not only that he was the true King of Pop

No one can take the title away from Michal Jackson. If not for him we would have never had boy bands and while for some that isnt a bad thing, it made my childhood. I was raised by parents that loved his music, and while i love his music as well, I fell in love with Nsync. They were the people that truly were mini-michaels, they based their syncronized movements on videos like Thriller and Smooth Criminal.

MTV while crap now, they were all great when they were actually MUSIC TELE-VISION, When people gathered around the TV to watch the world premiere of Michael Jacksons newest video.

One thing that upsets me the most is that people will not separate the bad habits, with the true artistry that he possessed. I believe now that he is gone, he needs to go down in history as a person that started a generation, not only the generation, but he has left music that will stay in the hearts of everyone.

Talking to the people that grew up with him, they remember the roller skating and listening to him as well as moon walking in skates. He left fond memories in many hearts.

To me, I will always separate the music from the habits.

R.I.P. Michael Jackson 1958-2009

Champions in the Making

The Chicago Slaughter has been on the scene for the last 2 years, they have been slowly coming out to become an essential part of my life and an essential part of other peoples lives. This year with the absence of the Chicago Rush, it has allowed the Slaughter not only to become bigger but also to gain some interesting and amazing players. Russ Michna, DeJuan Alfonso, Dennison Robbinson, Donovan Morgan, Khreem Smith and who could forget the addition of Bobby Sippio, Those are just a few of the players that the CIFL recieved after the fall of the AFL,

Now that the Slaughter made it 12-0 in the regular season, there is no way that they are going to fall now. Almost every game has been a high scoring game just because these players are amazing and love what they do, as well as giving the fans a good show. Someone like Bobby Sippio makes his mark when he scores, even to the point that they have thrown a flag on him, like this past week after a touch down he took the ball, layed down on it in the center of the Slaughter symbol on the field and then another player laid a Slaughter blanket down on him. It was amazingly cool and creative.

Not only are the games fun, but the tail gating before the game is always something to be noticed, the smells fill the Sears Center and they also make such an impact that a lot of people show up late to the game itself, which doesnt bother me because im always helping set whatever they need up.

The fan friendly environment is amazing! The Slaughter players are extremley sweet guys and they are very willing to stand around after the game and sign autographs because that is just what they like to do, they like to be there for their fans because most of the fans that come and see them are there at EVERY game. Also one other thing to note about the player, they are always very willing to take pictures with you and they are genuinely great guys.

This team is more like a big family, there are always people that are around the slaughter because all of the players and the coaches are amazing, I would recomend the Chicago Slaughter to any and every football fan or even just a sports fan. These players play with more heart than any other professional team I have ever seen.

This team helps with my insanity, it is one of the biggest releases, watching them and screaming my lungs out at the games!!

Tuesday Serenity

In my Insanity

In my insanity, I am still trying to find the usefulness as well as the cleverness of being insane. There are somethings that i feel as though my insanity helps me with, and other times i feel as though it pulls me down.

Expressing my insanity is the easiest way for my to express my insanity but sometimes its not exactly the release that I need, sometimes i need the comfort in my life from my friends and my family.



I still wish at times that i could figure out why i feel this way, why anyone feels misplaced in this world and ofcourse I am still wondering how I am here to help



I thank god for my life, Thank my parents for the knowlege and strength that they give me and my friends, Virtual or otherwise for the friendship and the power that comes with having friends.

Although now, I wonder if I will be able to really help anyone in this big world, but if I can help, I will be ready with an open mind and an open heart.

Construction <3

Part of starting a new path is finding how to make it through the reconstruction, Trying to find the way through the new things in life.

When one door closes another door opens

When life gives you lemons...so forth

Finding the new opportunities isnt hard its taking your life and molding it so that the change is at a minimum.

Now there is one construction that drives me insane, please bear with my blog as I try to reconstuct it and make it better for readers as well as for myself with updating

Love & Peace
Alyssa


Change:
Blind Melon

I dont feel the suns comin out today
Its staying in, its gonna find another way.
As I sit here in this misery, I dont
Think Ill ever see the sun from here.
And oh as I fade away,
Theyll all look at me and say, and theyll say,
Hey look at him! Ill never live that way.
But thats okay
Theyre just afraid to change.
When you feel your life aint worth living
Youve got to stand up and
Take a look around you then a look way up to the sky.
And when your deepest thoughts are broken,
Keep on dreaming boy, cause when you stop dreamin its time to die.
And as we all play parts of tomorrow,
Some ways will work and other ways well play.
But I know we all cant stay here forever,
So I want to write my words on the face of today.
And then theyll paint it
And oh as I fade away,
Theyll all look at me and theyll say,
Hey look at him and where he is these days.
When life is hard, you have to change.

Looking for the new path

Looking around and trying to find my new perspective, I see what I have been wanting to see, my life starting right before my eyes. What makes these days different than the past, what makes this time looking around different than all those years in high school? I have been waiting for my life to kick in and with a job, with college starting soon, I believe that I am following the yellow brick road.

Although I am trying to find this way through, I keep coming back to the same guy. No matter what he says or what he does I love him unconditionally

All the Same
Sick Puppies

I dont mind where you come from
As long as you come to me
But I dont like illusions I cant see
Them clearly
I dont care, no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually what you'll do
I dont mind
I dont care
As long as you're here

Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
And do it all over again
It's all the same

Hours slide and days go by
Till you decide to come
But in-between it always seems too long
Suddenly
But I have the skill, yeah
I have the will, to breath you in while I can
However long you stay is all that I am

I dont mind, I dont care
As long as you're here

Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
And do it all over again
It's always the same

Wrong or Right
Black or White
If I close my eyes
Its all the same

In my life
The compromise
I'll close my eyes
Its all the same

Go ahead say it
You're leaving
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are now
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same

Sexting

What should people do if they cannot even feel safe enough to answer their own phone? Students now feel comfortable enough with themselves that they feel it necessary to take photos of themselves, and give it to a boyfriend as a way of showing affection. People need to understand that this is not only disgusting but it is a risk to your character, to your reputation and also to the rest of your life. This new craze which has the law taken aback is called “Sexting”
What is sexting? It is something that has just been brought out into the public as one of the newest crazes within a teenage setting. People these days are willing to trust all of their identification as well as other parts of their lives so now they feel like they can live their entire life, including their sexuality, over their cell phones.
People may believe that felonies only occur when there is a physical contact with another human being. Now not only is it a felony for that, you can be charged with a felony for posting these photos of yourself. In a recent court case a fourteen year old girl posted photos of herself on MySpace for her boyfriend. She is now being charged with jail time as well as at least twenty years on the sex offender list.
When interviewing a junior, they stated “I feel so comfortable with my phone I have every number, every date and almost every moment of my life planned out on my phone, why not have every aspect of my life be on my phone. What are long distance couples supposed to do, drive out and see each other every night? It would be impossible, plus, using sexting could even be safer, even less of a chance of pregnancy.”
Even with understanding that fact, is the text that you send going to make up for whatever it is you are trying to compensate for? Plus the bad stuff will always be worse than what you intend on having happen.
What is the point of this sexting if what might happen in return could be even worse? If at some point these couples break up, they might spread these photos around the schools, they might end worse off than when they started. The photos are at risk to be spread anywhere. The pictures aren’t something that can be taken back after they are sent. These photos are going to defile someone just by taking them, but having others see might be even worse.
Another new problem that has been arising is the “art” of photo bombing which can be as simple as just jumping in the background of someone’s picture that is being taken, or to another extreme where people are going in and edit up peoples photos. Sometimes these cases are pushed even to the sexting extreme.
People need to be more aware of what they are doing to themselves as well as the people around them. Students shouldn’t have to deal with the backfire of a stupid decision that can be completely avoided. Look at people actors and actresses that have made that decision in the past, now they have had to deal with that backfire in their careers.
Think before you text!

Turn the page

As i start on my newest journey in my life, I am hoping to create something new, by turning the pages on my life. I want to show the world that no matter how long it will take i will change all that I am going to need to to show everyone that people can change.

It is time to create a new and better life for ourselves. No matter how long it takes, isn't it worth it to try whatever we have to in order to make a better life for the future.

I am about to graduate and I feel as though I have changed some, its not enough. I need a true change.



On a long and lonesome highway east of omaha
You can listen to the engines moaning out as one note song
You think about the woman or the girl you knew the night before

But your thoughts will soon be wandering the way they always do
When youre riding sixteen hours and theres nothing much to do
And you dont feel much like riding, you just wish the trip was through

Here I am - on the road again
There I am - up on the stage
Here I go - playing star again
There I go - turn the page

So you walk into this restaurant strung out from the road
And you feel the eyes upon you, as youre shaking off the cold
You pretend it doesnt bother you, but you just want to explode

Yeah, most times you cant hear em talk, other times you can
All the same old clichs, is it woman? is it man?
And you always seem outnumbered, you dont dare make a stand
Make your stand

Here I am - on the road again
There I am - up on the stage
Here I go - playing star again
There I go - turn the page

Oo-ooh, out there in the spotlight, youre a million miles away
Every ounce of energy you try to give away
As the sweat pours out your body like the music that you play, yeah

Later in the evening, you lie awake in bed
With the echoes of the amplifiers ringing in your head
You smoke the days last cigarette, remembering what she said
What she said

He-ey

Yeah
And here I am - on the road again
There I am - up on a stage
Here I go - playing star again
There I go - turn the page
There I go - turn that page
There I go, yeah, yeah
There I go, yeah, yeah
There I go, yeah
There I go, yeah
There I go, oo-oo-ooh
There I go
And Im gone


-Metallica

Come Back to ME

you say you gotta go and find yourself
you say that you’re becoming someone else
don’t recognize the face in the mirror
looking back at you

you say you’re leavin
as you look away
i know theres really nothin left to say
just know i’m here
whenever you need me
i’ll wait for you

so i’ll let you go
i’ll set you free
and when you see what you need to see
when you find you come back to me

take your time i wont go anywhere
picture you with the wind in your hair
i’ll keep your things right where you left them
i’ll be here for you

oh and i’ll let you go
i’ll set you free
and when you see what you need to see
when you find you come back to me

and i hope you find everything that you need
i’ll be right here waiting to see
you find you come back to me

i can’t get close if your not there
i can’t get inside if theres no soul to bear
i can’t fix you i can’t save you
its something you have to do

so i’ll let you go
i’ll set you free
and when you see what you need to see
when you find you come back to me
come back to me
so i’ll let you go
i’ll set you free
and when you see what you need to see
when you find you come back to me

and i hope you find everything that you need
i’ll be right here waiting to see
you find you come back to me

when you find you come back to me
when you find you come back to me
when you find you come back to me

When hearing that song, i thought about how i would feel if my love and i split up. We have created the most amazing bond over the last year. This has now become something that i think will happen. Maybe if we do part, he will come back.

What should we stand for?

If you don't stand for something, you will fall for anything.....

When you stand for something that you believe in no one can shake you, there isnt a person that can tell you that you need to believe something else.

When you don't stand for anything you are more likely to fall.

Coming Full Circle

When we as people are on the wrong path, our days seem eternal, never able to have to pleasure, but when we are on the path that we want to be on it feels like it flies by. Its a common fact that when we are happy that time flies. Now that this year is so close to a close I am realizing something. We all become a full circle, whether it is in school, or in work, or just in life we always find ways to complete ourselves.